i don't seem to have anyone to love anymore. i thought that without all these people i would feel so horrible and alone. and i do, but not the way i thought i would. it's not in a way where i am inclined to wish for someone. it's just a resigned sort of way, a "them's the breaks" way. i just can't seem to make myself care; if i'm alone, i'm alone. if i'm not, i'm not. and that's it. and i don't want this to change.

i received a ring once, in a box that said grow where you're planted. i hate the phrase but not its meaning. adaptation. it's all i can do, really, and it's a lot easier to do now that ... circumstances have changed.

song: nope. not this time.