lesbfriends6 - the new squirrel-x? i shudder to think. jesus. i remember a time when i didn't have to right-click a banner and look at whose it was, screaming 'i DEFY you to be a squirrel-x banner!'

bah. anyway. it appears i will not have to return to the household of the mother and stepfather at christmas. oh, how i hate that man. you should never have to feel such paranoia in your own home. there's still vestiges of that fear left even now, over a year later, and i just can't get rid of it.

seven years i waited to get away from that fuck, and now that i'm finally out i do not want to go back.

she said to the therapist, after they found that notebook, that she was afraid my 'ill will' (understatement of the year) would keep me from visting. you're god damn right it will, mother. i didn't go to texas with you this summer because that's three months more that i wouldn't have to spend under the same roof as he. when that fuck is dead and in the motherfucking ground, i'll visit all you god damn want.

i just don't get how you couldn't understand that every time i had to come back home, i cried for hours. what the fuck.

me = the patron saint of grudges.

song: "don't let it bring you down" - neil young