you ever feel like death is right there? not in a goth girl way, but in a serious way, where all the signs are there that something is seriously wrong and that you really can't do anything about it because you're broke and you have no idea where or who to go to? and you don't want to make a big deal out of it because you realize that it could be nothing, but something is there that tells you it's definitely something?

that's a really, really scary feeling. i've been terrified all week but i think it's getting better. maybe it was nothing.

song: "rattlesnake" - live